I'll put my heels on
To take them off at your door
Venus in faux
To be modelled by your kitchen floor
FREE
I fell in love with all your friends
and let it burn inside of me.
Dream cameos,
so when face to face
I was red faced
and forgot to use my words.
I ran around this miserable city,
politely, burning brightly
sitting on my hands
shrugging it off
and calling it off
and changing the subject.
All of this to avoid heart break
on your side of downtown.
caring is exhausting
so now that it's settled
I think it'd be better
if you gave me permission to fuck your friends.
and let it burn inside of me.
Dream cameos,
so when face to face
I was red faced
and forgot to use my words.
I ran around this miserable city,
politely, burning brightly
sitting on my hands
shrugging it off
and calling it off
and changing the subject.
All of this to avoid heart break
on your side of downtown.
caring is exhausting
so now that it's settled
I think it'd be better
if you gave me permission to fuck your friends.
silly boys
I get it
I get that you drive fast
You're popular
You're in a couple hundred punk bands
and I can fit my whole hand
through what used to be your ear.
A different lamp post
a different picture of your face
folded arms
holding on with electical tape
You're good to go but you used to be a saint
or the other way around and it'll flip next year.
I get that you drive fast
You're popular
You're in a couple hundred punk bands
and I can fit my whole hand
through what used to be your ear.
A different lamp post
a different picture of your face
folded arms
holding on with electical tape
You're good to go but you used to be a saint
or the other way around and it'll flip next year.
08
I miss climbing trees and climbing sculptures. Laying in the grass, smoking joints and singing in harmony. Coming home with stamps on our hands. Waking up with stamp-reflections on our faces. Him on my ukulele while I put on makeup in the kitchen. I drink red, you drink white. Thrashing under the hot lights, soaked in each others sweat. Our own language like we're sixteen. I miss stranger horses and pregnant pitbulls. Running up the hill as fast as we can. Dragons and worms spitting poison and I run screaming. Coloring books and broken glass in the crack den. Blowing pot smoke bubbles. Leaning on each other. I hate Jack Daniels. I miss feeling like I'm high for the first time, can't get my words out. Drenched in champagne and lawn bowling is very dangerous. I miss cap guns. Eating spinach pizza every week. Too hot for makeup. I miss being scolded. Vivaldi as the kittens climbed the curtains. Lost on an empty tank. Strawberry soymilk and I won't cry. Twisting in the living room. Tea.
puppet vultures
I read all day.
By the light of matches
and auras.
Slowly.
paying close attention
to the words that make me nervous.
which is the same as guilty
if you are anything like me.
I circle them.
There is no pattern,
dots to connect,
light to shed.
No letter, no vowel.
No sound, color.
I am afraid of almost everything.
Especially the monsters
admiring laws like french architecture
heads cocked, notes like code on the paper bags
I would rather use as puppets.
So I lit up,
and I ran
I hope you are nothing like me.
10/07
By the light of matches
and auras.
Slowly.
paying close attention
to the words that make me nervous.
which is the same as guilty
if you are anything like me.
I circle them.
There is no pattern,
dots to connect,
light to shed.
No letter, no vowel.
No sound, color.
I am afraid of almost everything.
Especially the monsters
admiring laws like french architecture
heads cocked, notes like code on the paper bags
I would rather use as puppets.
So I lit up,
and I ran
I hope you are nothing like me.
10/07
part one
I'm going to yellow your blues
I'm going to wear your shoes
I'm going to cut the noose
when you do that stupid thing you do.
I'm going to hide your pants
I'm going to need your hands
I'm going to miss my chance
If you don't take me right now right here and fast.
I'm going to take that as a joke
I'm going to pay 'cuz you're fucking broke
I'm going to leave you to your coke
leave you in the rain 'til your bones are soaked.
I'm going to say "fuck your scene".
I'm going to turn to ash your green
I'm going to slay what I can't keep
but honey, you don't look a thing like James Dean
I'm going to burn when you go down
I'm going to blow a kiss as you drown
I'm going to have you come around
when the wine is hot and the acid is brown.
I'm going whisper under Klimt
I'm going do what she didn't
I'm going to have my dope hidden
so bring a flask and a permanent pen.
05/08
I'm going to wear your shoes
I'm going to cut the noose
when you do that stupid thing you do.
I'm going to hide your pants
I'm going to need your hands
I'm going to miss my chance
If you don't take me right now right here and fast.
I'm going to take that as a joke
I'm going to pay 'cuz you're fucking broke
I'm going to leave you to your coke
leave you in the rain 'til your bones are soaked.
I'm going to say "fuck your scene".
I'm going to turn to ash your green
I'm going to slay what I can't keep
but honey, you don't look a thing like James Dean
I'm going to burn when you go down
I'm going to blow a kiss as you drown
I'm going to have you come around
when the wine is hot and the acid is brown.
I'm going whisper under Klimt
I'm going do what she didn't
I'm going to have my dope hidden
so bring a flask and a permanent pen.
05/08
birthday poem.
With my head on your shoulder
I'm so happy winter's over
you the father, I the son
but my love, don't let me settle down
eyes roll, heads roll
a mushroom bowl lit with a match
heat lamp but hands on vibrate
I'm transparent when I disassociate
so imagine who I am
when I'm in someone elses hands
it's beautiful, it's mutual
consentual prophesized heart attacks
With my head on your shoulder
aren't you happy winter's over?
Oh, I know what's in a name
but what is in a dream?
lipstick teeth, bong water doesn't stain
it's comforting, it's greek to me
Collect the chalk, the fire, the knives
I throw your way when you are sleeping
use the bottles I leave night after day
when I'm feeling like an architect
and you should take me up
and you should take me home
With my head on your shoulder
and ode-to-you songs
aren't you happy winter's over?
perhaps I loved you all along
and I can't count on the sun
when you're the beat to count me in on
I want your head on my shoulder
come down, come around, come over
to see your teeth, to force poetry
lightning storms all night and climbing trees
inevitable, I watch your hands
map out my favorite songs, my favorite bands
damn the selfish and the sober
I'm so happy winter's over
in all my happiness, in your clothes
my yellows, pinks and purples show
but I don't count on the sun
cuz you're the beat to count me in on
for Big Guy
04/08
I'm so happy winter's over
you the father, I the son
but my love, don't let me settle down
eyes roll, heads roll
a mushroom bowl lit with a match
heat lamp but hands on vibrate
I'm transparent when I disassociate
so imagine who I am
when I'm in someone elses hands
it's beautiful, it's mutual
consentual prophesized heart attacks
With my head on your shoulder
aren't you happy winter's over?
Oh, I know what's in a name
but what is in a dream?
lipstick teeth, bong water doesn't stain
it's comforting, it's greek to me
Collect the chalk, the fire, the knives
I throw your way when you are sleeping
use the bottles I leave night after day
when I'm feeling like an architect
and you should take me up
and you should take me home
With my head on your shoulder
and ode-to-you songs
aren't you happy winter's over?
perhaps I loved you all along
and I can't count on the sun
when you're the beat to count me in on
I want your head on my shoulder
come down, come around, come over
to see your teeth, to force poetry
lightning storms all night and climbing trees
inevitable, I watch your hands
map out my favorite songs, my favorite bands
damn the selfish and the sober
I'm so happy winter's over
in all my happiness, in your clothes
my yellows, pinks and purples show
but I don't count on the sun
cuz you're the beat to count me in on
for Big Guy
04/08
green thread
there's two
03/08
of the two of us
but all of us are wilting
we are waltzing
and our famished heads
sewn on
by an undead romantic
03/08
happy new fears
"Nothing to see here"
"Everything to see here"
Knee deep but it feels like hell
"I'm not kissing anyone at twelve.
When I'm eating, I eat boys like you for breakfast." she said.
"Everything to see here"
Knee deep but it feels like hell
"I'm not kissing anyone at twelve.
When I'm eating, I eat boys like you for breakfast." she said.
bruises of yours
don't you ever feel it's a bitch to sleep alone
dont you ever feel like your hands need hips to hold
don't you ever get dizzy from swinging and swinging open locked doors
tell me, what will your tongue do when lying leaves it sore
and you're lying on the floor
can't recall the name of the lay you last lured home
dont you ever long for legs to call your own
01/06
dont you ever feel like your hands need hips to hold
don't you ever get dizzy from swinging and swinging open locked doors
tell me, what will your tongue do when lying leaves it sore
and you're lying on the floor
can't recall the name of the lay you last lured home
dont you ever long for legs to call your own
01/06
my longing doesn't sleep
take her, lock her up, make her cry
it's all frayed
make or break it down, break down
now key change
pretend it's natural, cut the ties
cut yourself up
we're friends, it's mutual, sit too far,
secret agent love.
05/08
it's all frayed
make or break it down, break down
now key change
pretend it's natural, cut the ties
cut yourself up
we're friends, it's mutual, sit too far,
secret agent love.
05/08
you're not tired
Where is my right?
Hands empty, all but gravel.
so they're in the air, but fight
me. Pick me up love,
pick me up and put me in my place.
They don't know sin.
No, we're not tied.
And you're not tired.
You just miss your girlfriend.
Yes, there's a line.
To the back boy.
Where's your backbone?
I'm cold, I'll sign
away what we said.
Paint your mail black. and kill you off.
They don't know sin.
No really, you lose.
Put on your I-just-wanna-be-punk-rock shoes
and go home to your girlfriend.
I'll change my mind.
Hold your tshirt
ransom 'til you hold me.
I counted 89
and all the orchid petals
and the grass stains read like tea leaves.
They don't know shit.
We are at war.
Forfeit once more to your mistress.
Hands empty, all but gravel.
so they're in the air, but fight
me. Pick me up love,
pick me up and put me in my place.
They don't know sin.
No, we're not tied.
And you're not tired.
You just miss your girlfriend.
Yes, there's a line.
To the back boy.
Where's your backbone?
I'm cold, I'll sign
away what we said.
Paint your mail black. and kill you off.
They don't know sin.
No really, you lose.
Put on your I-just-wanna-be-punk-rock shoes
and go home to your girlfriend.
I'll change my mind.
Hold your tshirt
ransom 'til you hold me.
I counted 89
and all the orchid petals
and the grass stains read like tea leaves.
They don't know shit.
We are at war.
Forfeit once more to your mistress.
idwybidwytwygf.
Lets not talk expensive,
Lets thrash to the beat of your drunken heart.
Why beg for roses,
When the kitchen table is the perfect height?
And I'm the perfect high.
"Hi,
I don't think you should think" I said,
but the guilt was hot when I touched your head.
I don't want you but I don't want you to want your girlfriend.
I don't want you but I don't want you to want your girlfriend.
07/08
Lets thrash to the beat of your drunken heart.
Why beg for roses,
When the kitchen table is the perfect height?
And I'm the perfect high.
"Hi,
I don't think you should think" I said,
but the guilt was hot when I touched your head.
I don't want you but I don't want you to want your girlfriend.
I don't want you but I don't want you to want your girlfriend.
07/08
mermaid bones
the need to burn anthologies
resigns for reasons hot
won't call his girlfriend up this time
my bones know he'll be caught.
07/08
resigns for reasons hot
won't call his girlfriend up this time
my bones know he'll be caught.
07/08
your key
If I had a record player
you'd kill me
there's never really room
for more than one of us
and this is not an antique store.
it may be sad
but that only means it's true
it drags its feet
it ties a noose
the water waxes red from blue.
for J
03/08
you'd kill me
there's never really room
for more than one of us
and this is not an antique store.
it may be sad
but that only means it's true
it drags its feet
it ties a noose
the water waxes red from blue.
for J
03/08
Lion Song
I followed you down
and I believe everything
Candy said about my body.
I cut you open.
and I sighed.
and you could taste the blood in my eyes.
Don't wanna talk about walls.
Really, rather not talk at all.
But I will.
Because you want to.
If I could fight it, all G-ds know I would.
"Hey, ho, lets go", and we did because we could.
Memorize it, it's just the same C over and over again and again.
and I don't want to do it. and I don't want to think about you.
We sat around and
the sweet leaf married me.
And we danced a trip, a jive, a twist, so secretly.
They cut him open.
How am I to get you high
when I can taste the blood in your eyes?
Take the heart off your sleeve.
It's killing me.
Now, take it all off.
Because I want you.
Call him on it, but the notes to self never really get back to me.
But what do I know.
Categorize the apples and eyes, but we all need a little love.
and I can't see
how you can't see
that I will never agree to disagree.
10/07
and I believe everything
Candy said about my body.
I cut you open.
and I sighed.
and you could taste the blood in my eyes.
Don't wanna talk about walls.
Really, rather not talk at all.
But I will.
Because you want to.
If I could fight it, all G-ds know I would.
"Hey, ho, lets go", and we did because we could.
Memorize it, it's just the same C over and over again and again.
and I don't want to do it. and I don't want to think about you.
We sat around and
the sweet leaf married me.
And we danced a trip, a jive, a twist, so secretly.
They cut him open.
How am I to get you high
when I can taste the blood in your eyes?
Take the heart off your sleeve.
It's killing me.
Now, take it all off.
Because I want you.
Call him on it, but the notes to self never really get back to me.
But what do I know.
Categorize the apples and eyes, but we all need a little love.
and I can't see
how you can't see
that I will never agree to disagree.
10/07
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